Esther Smith Posts

A few weeks ago, I spoke at the Freedom Church women’s conference on the topic of thoughts and emotions. Keeping with the theme of the conference, I talked about what it looks like to seek God first in this particular area of life. Several people asked to see my notes, so I have included highlights from my talk transcript in the post below. 

Today we are going to spend some time talking about thoughts and emotions and what it means to take every thought captive. What does it look like to seek God first in this very important area of life?

What would you learn if you could see a representation of your whole life on a single piece of paper? Give it a try. You might be surprised.

A simple way to draw a representation of your life is through a timeline. I like to do this exercise with people who have complicated and busy life histories. Most of us do! It can feel incredibly therapeutic for people who have pasts and presents that feel overwhelming, complex, and confusing. Putting the facts down on paper helps sort through the mess.

I’m listening to Dr. Brené Brown’s Braving the Wilderness, a book that explores the nature of true belonging, and it wasn’t until I was halfway through that it hit me how much this theme has been apparent throughout my life.

I transitioned from homeschool to private Christian school in 8thgrade. It was a difficult year, the whole of which can be summed up in one memory. A classmate offered me some chapstick. It was pink chapstick, housed in a little round container with a screw-on lid. I had never seen chapstick like this before, and I didn’t know what to do with it. I dug deep into the container, and a glistening blob of way-too-much goo clung to my finger. She looked at me appalled. What was I thinking? Why was I being so weird? What was wrong with me?